Mother Earth is circling and the seasons are changing, and although we may feel warm temperatures and humidity in the air, I know colder weather is coming. That's okay; I like the cold. I think coldness gives us a chance to better prepare ourselves, to think more clearly about what our intentions are when we go outside. This summer has been a season of change for me, but only change of perspective. Not much has changed about my life--I have the same job, the same wonderful boyfriend I've had for three years now, the same house. But inside, I feel a lot different. I had a birthday this summer, and to me, I think it has been somewhat of a rebirth. Before my birthday, I was slowly growing in confidence and in inner strength. When I did turn twenty-seven, that confidence and strength felt like it bloomed. Now I know I want different things.
I've been feeling an overwhelming sense of inner peace, love, and respect for this life of mine. I've felt a lot more awe than I have in a long time; I've turned down the desire to appear a certain way to others; I've picked up a deeper understanding of my history. I want to change for the better, always, to be on the upswing whenever I possibly can. I want to love better, to listen better, and to make better decisions. I want to be more sharing and open-hearted to strangers.
I think with my blog, before, I was a little bit afraid to share myself completely. Reading back on some of the entries, the language just doesn't seem like me for some reason. I want to type without having that voice in my head that thinks, "What if so-and-so reads that and thinks this?" or, "What would this person think of that?" In the words of the Smashing Pumpkins, "I just want to be me when I can... I will try to understand, that when I can, I will."
Rental Revival is undergoing some changes. Positive changes, I believe. I want this to be more of a combination of my home, my projects, and my personal thoughts. I want it to feel cleaner and more peaceful. I want it to be my little corner of the internet, just for me, and for those who want to share it happily. A few things that will change? The look. Things will be more cohesive. As far as content, I don't think that will change so much as grow. I'm not looking to get rid of any type of content I already have; I just want to add more diary entries, so you can get to know me for who I am.
I hope you like what I will be slowly introducing from now on. I welcome your comments, always. And I hope you share my blog with your friends.